I FEEL SO GUILTY ALL THE TIME! Is that normal? Honestly it has nothing to do with being a full-time working mum because I can tell you, hand on my heart that as soon as I fell pregnant I also fell into that deep pit of mother's guilt. But now, now I have added another layer to my rainbow guilt cake, because all those other layers weren't yummy enough. There have been many moments, almost too many to recount where I have chosen work, study or cleaning over my children and then after those moments I feel like absolute crap because all they wanted from me was to play a game of handball or build Lego. I know that when I get older and I look back on my life I am not going to reminisce about all those wonderfully glorious days of work and cleaning ... NO! I am going to look back and remember all those times I went for a bike ride with my kids, that time we sat up at night and gazed at the stars and made up fantastical stories about aliens or that time we sat in our PJs all day and binged watched Netflix. I will never reminisce about cleaning the toilet! Recently both of my offspring have been sick, it feels like someone in our house has been sick for the past month or so I am completely over it ! Actually, as I type this I have just sent both of them to bed dosed up on ibuprofen to bring their temperature down and you know what the crappiest part is, that last night when one of them stumbled in to our bedroom crying with a raging temperature the first thing I thought was "shit I am going to have to take a day off tomorrow? Are they going to understand? Will they judge me? Do I have all my planning done? What about buddy class? Will they understand my notes? That is rubbish, that should not have been my first thought? So I decided to do some research, you know high brow internet research (blogs are peer reviewed right?) into The Working Mothers' Syndrome and there is a tonne of stuff on the internet about it. Apparently it is not good for your health to be stressed 24/7, who would have known! Being under that much stress and guilt all the time can lead to adrenal fatigue, diabetes, high cholesterol, depression and an increase in heart conditions. It is interesting to add that many of the articles suggest that the husband should pick up the slack and I thought, hmm there are a lot of assumptions going on here and is it the same for same sex couples? I have chosen one article from Psychology Today because it had 6 Tips for the Overworked Mother, there were others that were probably better but they had like a million tips - I am lazy and couldn't be bothered reading all those tips, I mean actually 6 was pushing it because 5 would have been my limit but I wanted to live life a bit on the edge today. So here we go:
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